He Customizes You & "Do Everything"

Firstly thank you Jennt & thank you Doreen for your encouraging comments. It got me thinking a lot this weekend. :)

I'm in the states right now (as usual). A weekend with the family, tensions all together, is very stressful for me right now. As you can see it's 3AM, I'm studying for my midterm on Monday. By Friday night, I realized it was a mistake to tag along with them to the states--I should have stayed home, away from them, and study! But now that I'm here and obviously cannot go back, I guess I'll make the best of it.

be still, Know He is God

When things get tough, when things don't make any sense..
Our Beloved told us "Be still, know I am God"
<3 all we have to do is be still, and trust that He will make a way and carry us through it :)
For all you sisters out there who are going through something, here's some encouragements through music ^^ i love music! especially when the meaning is soul tugging and spirit lifting :)
close your eyes and enjoy with faith!

Release, the Kraken!

I just unleashed my monstrous side of me, something I don't normally do or show to others. Yes, I am Kay, I may be funny, mostly annoying, not that pretty, doesn't have a good voice, no real talent other than eating... but deep within me lies this other Kay, who lashes out at the people around her when things reach a tipping point.

A plea to God: I need prayers.

I think the past month or more, I've been asking for the same prayer...

To sum it up; I'm sleep deprived, stressed, angry, and I just want my life back :(.

School + work is eating up all my time, and sometimes I don't even know why I'm trying so hard anyways. There are so many tests, quizzes, assignments, and stuff to do I feel like I have no time to live my own life; to draw near God, or to even do the things I love. If I'm MIA at church, please blame school and the teachers who give me lots of homework D:.

I'm really trying to keep up with this balancing act, but I feel like... my time is constantly slipping through my fingers. I just can't seen to grasp it.

I can feel the pressure caving in on me.

Oh Lord, I'm so tired right now. I just want you to bring me back to Your bosom and let me rest there for a good hour or so. I just need some kind of sanctuary away from all this chaos... I pray that You can really help me; I know that You can understand my situation through my sighs, or my laughter. Lord, how precious that I can communicate with You through my spirit, and that your understanding is infinite. Lord, may you heal my wreck of a mind and help me focus on the path ahead. Please help me manage my time wisely, and really be able to go through all this while remaining close with You...

I've been crying too much lately :(
Lord, I need you. I need you now.

Cry Out to Jesus

"Hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart

Grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are."

A lot of the times, I get quite discouraged when I can't accomplish something. I'm a fairly determined person, so if there's something I cannot do when I try very hard, it becomes a big disappointment for me.

My standards are just as high when it comes to spiritual goals. There are many things I wish to do better for the Lord. If I feel there has been no progress, I begin to doubt whether it's even possible for me.

I'm not a talented person. There's nothing that I am naturally good at. Everything I can do and have achieved is from working myself to the utmost, pushing myself past limits, and within these 6 years, relying on Him and His grace. I always believed that if I work hard, nothing would be impossible for me.

But then come the days when working my hardest doesn't seem enough, when setting higher goals seems to be too much to handle, and when pushing myself requires too much effort. How am I supposed to do this, Lord? How do you expect me to do this?

And the Lord's amazing, most comforting response. "I don't. I don't expect you to do this. I expect you to rely on Me to do it with you. I am here, Jessie. I am here for You."

What is it that we lack? Time? Patience? Hope? Strength? If we have only enough strength to run 10k of a 40k marathon, don't lose heart. We run our 10k with Him, and then He'll carry us the rest of the way. Whatever it is, "He'll meet us wherever we are".

So cry out to Jesus. Our Saviour. Our best friend. Our true Beloved.


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Song: Cry Out to Jesus - Third Day

Seeking and Listening for His Directions

The past year has taught me something, and for those who are still in high school, I hope you can learn from this too!

In the year of 2010, I got accepted into U of T's art history program. It was exciting for me, I had dreams of myself going to Europe studying ancient art work, giving lectures about the wonders of chapels and cathedrals (one of my favourite art subjects, by the way). By winter of 2010, I started having doubts about my educational path. I doubted the most about what God wanted me to do. In fact, I even doubted that God was even trying to lead me at all, like He just left me to fend for myself in this mess of an education.

Enjoy!

Hi, just a reminder about our blog. It's been a great past 11 months of blogging with you sisters--it just couldn't wait til the one year mark!

This blog has been useful to help strengthen sisters, to unite us together by getting to know each other more--especially those who may be too shy to share on Sundays. This blog has helped us in our moments of deep thought, to spill out our heart and feelings towards each other here. Posts have been tidbits of getting to know each other more, and tidbits of spiritual food. This blog enabled us, despite our busy schedule to write about our feelings, our sharings and our experiences.

Thank you for continually supporting Light and Salt Sisters Blog with your thoughts, your sharings, and posting music that's inspired you.

May we continue to keep this up. May we keep sharing and loving one another. Sisters, we can inspire, we can be leaders, we are the light and salt of this world.

With love,
-Light and Salt Sisters Blog

P.s. And now for some sisterly awkwardness...

You're already there

sharing a song :)
because the lyrics are so good ehhehe, like how i feel =D

From where I'm standing
Lord it's so hard for me to see
Where this is going
And where You're leading me
I wish I knew how
All my fears and all my questions
Are gonna play out
In a world I can't control

Oh, oh

When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

Oh, oh, oh, oh

From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When You breathed me into life
And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of Your picture perfect plan

When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
I can't wait to enjoy the view
And see how all the pieces fit (x2)

One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
Cause You're already there
You're already there
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there




-jennt

He is SO GOOD

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 =D
God is SOOO GOOOD :)
so here's my early thanksgiving! =D

i give thanks that He pulled me through my surgery
i give thanks that He helped me recover quickly and heal quickly
i give thanks that He made use of all situations to bring my family and friends and church family closer, i find that through my whole situation, He has brought these 3 aspects of my life to know each other <3
i give thanks that He is with me everyday and that He is always overwhelming me with His love every moment :) <3!!
i give thanks that He made a way for me to go to camp! <3
i'm so happy right now lol =D
as you can see... i'm smiling uncontrollably
so MUCH to give thanks for!
my Beloved is so GOOOOD to me!

Kind of guilty.

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I feel kind of bad because I haven't been sticking to my goals that I've made during disciple training with Cally and the bros/sis. And that I haven't been attending Sunday meetings because I keep waking up late or I've just been really busy with homework. Hence, why I'm writing this blog post when it's 12:23pm and when I should be at 591 right now.

I don't mean to miss meetings or forget to draw near to Him, etc. It's just really hard when I'm balancing all these things at school, and in my life. I don't think it's realistic for me to try to read the bible everyday either, but I've tried to do SDL often.

I feel like I don't have as much time throughout the days as I used to, especially with the fact that I'm in grade 11 now. I mean, that's no excuse but I'm pretty sure the Lord knows that I'm trying. I just feel like I'm constantly breaking promises to brothers and sisters. Like I would tell them that I'd be there, but then I don't show up, or I cancel on a plan for a get together. I'm just sorry... Sigh, it's even harder cause I feel like sometimes I'm being guilt tripped for not coming ): ... not mentioning any names. Or like I'm being checked up on every time about what I'm doing because I didn't show up. When I say this, of course I'm not saying everyone's doing that! But yeah, I guess you can call these as accusations or whatever but askdfjsdklfj I just want to stop feeling crappy.

Yeah.. I'm trying D:
Please pray for me so I can manage my time! I really need to feel organized in my life right now...

trapped

feels like an angry bird that's trapped inside all day T.T

mom's not letting me do this, or do that cuz she's worried about my head and etc... so annoyinggg, i feel fine. i can walk and talk, i'm not crippled.
i just feel like doing nothing cuz she doesn't let me do anything. no mood to do anythinG. grr...
i'm like an angry bird losing it's feathers and freedom. GARGHH...

sorrry to all the sisters i've bothered and annoyed and basically been stubborn and difficult.
can't help it.
ARGHHHSS -rips out hair-
darn staples came out today, was a good feeling til my mom's all like, you should stay home today, rest up, etc, don't go out. i'm like, i feel FINE>.

i feel like bouncing against a wall lol (like an angry bird LOL) T-T
somebody hit me or free this bird.