A plea to God: I need prayers.

I think the past month or more, I've been asking for the same prayer...

To sum it up; I'm sleep deprived, stressed, angry, and I just want my life back :(.

School + work is eating up all my time, and sometimes I don't even know why I'm trying so hard anyways. There are so many tests, quizzes, assignments, and stuff to do I feel like I have no time to live my own life; to draw near God, or to even do the things I love. If I'm MIA at church, please blame school and the teachers who give me lots of homework D:.

I'm really trying to keep up with this balancing act, but I feel like... my time is constantly slipping through my fingers. I just can't seen to grasp it.

I can feel the pressure caving in on me.

Oh Lord, I'm so tired right now. I just want you to bring me back to Your bosom and let me rest there for a good hour or so. I just need some kind of sanctuary away from all this chaos... I pray that You can really help me; I know that You can understand my situation through my sighs, or my laughter. Lord, how precious that I can communicate with You through my spirit, and that your understanding is infinite. Lord, may you heal my wreck of a mind and help me focus on the path ahead. Please help me manage my time wisely, and really be able to go through all this while remaining close with You...

I've been crying too much lately :(
Lord, I need you. I need you now.

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Kind of guilty.

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I feel kind of bad because I haven't been sticking to my goals that I've made during disciple training with Cally and the bros/sis. And that I haven't been attending Sunday meetings because I keep waking up late or I've just been really busy with homework. Hence, why I'm writing this blog post when it's 12:23pm and when I should be at 591 right now.

I don't mean to miss meetings or forget to draw near to Him, etc. It's just really hard when I'm balancing all these things at school, and in my life. I don't think it's realistic for me to try to read the bible everyday either, but I've tried to do SDL often.

I feel like I don't have as much time throughout the days as I used to, especially with the fact that I'm in grade 11 now. I mean, that's no excuse but I'm pretty sure the Lord knows that I'm trying. I just feel like I'm constantly breaking promises to brothers and sisters. Like I would tell them that I'd be there, but then I don't show up, or I cancel on a plan for a get together. I'm just sorry... Sigh, it's even harder cause I feel like sometimes I'm being guilt tripped for not coming ): ... not mentioning any names. Or like I'm being checked up on every time about what I'm doing because I didn't show up. When I say this, of course I'm not saying everyone's doing that! But yeah, I guess you can call these as accusations or whatever but askdfjsdklfj I just want to stop feeling crappy.

Yeah.. I'm trying D:
Please pray for me so I can manage my time! I really need to feel organized in my life right now...

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I just need a prayer...

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Lately when everyone asks me, "How's school been?" or "How are you?" I would reply saying that I'm doing great and that school's really chill since I know others who are piled on with homework.

But the thing is, now that I think deeper about it... things aren't okay. I can feel the presence of God guiding me, and I know for a fact that He'll never put me through anything I can't handle, but I feel like I can't handle this right now. By this, I mean school and life.
joy (:

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A post of Prayers and experiences.

* Note: This was originally going to be posted on another blog of mine, but I felt that since I had so much to share about God, I might as well share it with the sisters! ... And while I was writing this, I admit I was feeling rather blue and needed a place to vent, since I didn't really know who I could go to. But here it is, and I hope the tenses don't get you all mixed up!

I also might've forgotten to mention a few things because I'm honestly so tired right now, but if anything I shall edit it later!

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God affects the lives of everyone!

I just wanted to do a quick post before I headed off to bed! But I found it so amazing to have Christian friends at school, when I least expect it. If that makes any sense, haha. :D

Today I got a message on Facebook from a classmate of mine, who I don't usually talk to, but we ended up having a conversation that lasted for a while because of the fact that we're both Christian. And because of this fact, we were able to encourage each other and understand one another more. I think being Christian is such a great thing to have in common - even though he's Baptist and I'm just ... well, Christian.

It makes it special that we can openly talk about God in such a way, because we're all the children of God. And I feel happy to know that there are also many others who have accepted Him in their lives! It's like because of this, there's a spiritual bond between me and that person. If they have a problem, I can tell them "I'll pray for you!" or "God bless!" and they'll get it immediately. Waaaah, God's love towards us is so powerful and compelling >w<.

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Pray for me!

I'm guilty to admit that I haven't been checking the Sister's blog for a while now, but I'm so glad that you all are still writing and continuing to share your experiences with the Lord, your life, and the things you've all been up to! Please continue to write - and for those of you who have never written a post before, DO SO NOW. Whether it'd be about your day, or something you'd want to share. I just find that it's so important for everyone to communicate with one another, no matter how close or how distant you are with a bro/sis >w<.

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Rant: frustration.

I don’t know, but I find it so difficult to communicate with my parents sometimes… Maybe it’s the fact that I have an impatient personality, or it’s merely because I suck at Chinese.
It’s so hard to explain how I feel, or the things I’m going through to them. They assume they know everything, but they don’t. I hate that they keep thinking negative things about me. They keep saying that I’ve changed for the worse, and they blame it on me being Christian and think my church is influencing me. Or that my friends are influencing me, and that I buy things or do stuff just cause I’m following what my friend’s are doing. I don’t, and I’m not a follower.

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